A Journey Beyond the Familiar

This blog is inspired by a recent talk I gave at the last True Nature Small Group

What does it mean to know your True Nature?

What changes when this realization opens, and what happens to your everyday life?

These questions have been coming up more and more. There is curiosity, but sometimes also concern. We hear words like Brahman or the Absolute, and the mind immediately tries to understand what they mean. We wonder what we might experience, what we might lose, and whether life will still feel familiar.

I understand this because I had questions too. Before this shift happened for me, I read books and listened to people who had already experienced it. I formed ideas about what it would be like. And then, when it happened, the experience was different from anything I had imagined.

All I can really do is share my experience and point in a direction. Your own journey will unfold in its own way.

What I Mean by True Nature

When I use the words True Nature, Brahman, and the Absolute, I am pointing towards the same thing. I often use them together to make that clear.

I like the expression True Nature because it feels free. Brahman belongs to a spiritual tradition, and different traditions bring their own explanations and frameworks. My work comes through experience, energy, and the information that becomes available to me. I share it in the way that makes sense to me, without trying to fit everything into a particular system.

In the way I use these words, the soul, the higher self, the human, and the physical and nonphysical realms are within creation. Brahman is beyond creation. This is also why “Brahman consciousness” does not feel like an entirely accurate description to me: what I am pointing towards is beyond consciousness itself.

Of course, these are words. They can offer a direction, but the experience cannot be contained in an explanation.

Following the Aspiration for Truth

For me, this was something I consciously moved towards. I was experiencing unity consciousness and knew that there was a further opening on my journey.

At that time, I was in close contact with two people who had experienced Brahman. Their descriptions were very different. One encouraged me to stay in unity consciousness, finding it more enjoyable. The other spoke very positively about Brahman, especially in relation to working with energies and experiencing their different nuances.

I chose to remain open to the possibility of a positive experience. That did not mean I knew what would happen. I simply wanted to approach it with curiosity rather than build my whole understanding around fear.

This is something I apply to life more generally. We can meet the unfamiliar through resistance, or we can allow some openness and see what unfolds. Our approach makes a difference to how we are with an experience.

If this aspiration is there for you, you can honor it. You do not need to make somebody else’s experience your own, and you do not need to force yourself towards something that does not call you.

Meditation and the Willingness to Surrender

The guidance I received was to meditate and allow myself to move into deep meditation, into Samadhi. For about a year, this was a strong focus for me.

One explanation shared with me was that, in Samadhi, the part of the soul that has incarnated merges back with the Absolute. Through repeatedly entering that depth, something begins to remain. I could recognize a change in my own experience: each time I returned, I felt a little different. There was more detachment, although that word only describes part of it.

As meditation deepened, I also became more aware of my own system. Information and understanding would arise about what was opening or changing.

For me, this work is closely connected with surrender. We allow life to move us, while becoming aware of the resistance that holds us back. There can be dedication and a clear aspiration, together with a willingness to let the process unfold in a way we cannot plan.

An Opening I Could Not Have Imagined

At a retreat, while sitting in meditation with devotional music for the Divine Mother, I had one of the most profound experiences of my journey.

The way I would describe it is that the Divine Mother came into my system. Suddenly, I felt that I was her. There was openness, expansion, and an immense feminine power. The familiar sense of Eva was gone. I felt like the whole universe, while at the same time sitting in this body and observing through it.

Something about this felt deeply right to me. Throughout my life, there had been an inner knowing that there was more, even though I could not explain what that meant. In this experience, that knowing found a kind of recognition.

I asked inwardly what I could do to experience this all the time. The answer I received was that I needed to let go of human love.

That was specific to my process. I had not heard the same instruction from others who had moved into Brahman, and I would not turn it into a rule for everyone.

In the weeks that followed, my meditations were full of divine love. They were so beautiful and overwhelming that I often cried. At the same time, everyday situations showed me what my system had learned and understood human love to be. As these patterns became visible, I was willing to release them.

Then, without knowing exactly what was about to happen, the emptiness associated with Brahman was suddenly there. It was an unmistakable change in experience.

The Experience and the Life Around It

When I describe this, the mind naturally tries to understand it through what it already knows. I did exactly the same thing before the shift. Only afterwards could I recognize what other people had been pointing towards.

In that phase, suffering was absent from my experience. Human love, as I had known it, was also absent. This was the part I missed. I remained in that experience for about three months before the possibility of returning became available to me.

Yet throughout this time, ordinary life continued. I went to work. I had my partner and my friends. I went running and spent a spa weekend away with friends. From the outside, much of my life looked the same. What had changed was how I experienced it.

I continued meditating as the process unfolded and integrated. There were also further layers to work through on the human level. Knowing True Nature did not mean that every human pattern had already been cleared.

This is an important part of what I want to share: the inner shift and everyday life were happening together.

A Knowing That Remains

Today, this experience feels normal to me. That is one of the remarkable things about our system: something that once seemed extraordinary can become so natural that it is difficult to remember how life felt before.

The mind is mostly quiet, although thoughts can still arise. The present moment is the main experience. I recognize True Nature in everything and everyone, and the knowing of what I am remains.

I sometimes describe the human things that surface as a mosquito in a room. The mosquito is there, but you are still the room. Something may arise to be seen or cleared without taking away the larger knowing.

Becoming a mother brought my attention strongly back into the human experience. Being present for my child became the focus. More recently, my attention has opened again towards the wider experience of what I am. To me, these movements feel like different layers of myself becoming more prominent. The fundamental knowing has remained.

This is why I say the journey continues. There can be further openings, changes in focus, and new depths of experience. I do not know everything that will come next, and I do not need to.

Allow Your Own Journey to Unfold

My invitation is to stay open. Listen to other people’s experiences, but leave room for your own to be different. Let the aspiration for truth guide you, without needing to decide in advance what every step should look like.

In my work, I understand the energies as supporting the preparation and opening of the system. Meditation, clearing, and surrender have all been important parts of my own journey. The deeper invitation is to allow what is ready to unfold, and to release the need to control its exact form.

And write down your experiences. What feels unforgettable today may soon feel so natural that the details become difficult to recall.

For me, knowing my True Nature has been the most valuable part of this journey. Family, wellbeing, and the practical things of life still matter. They continue alongside a knowing that I would not exchange for anything.

You do not need to understand the whole journey before taking the next step. You can begin with the openness that is here now, and allow life to show you what comes next.

Love, Eva ❤️